Summer!

Wow I haven't wrote anything new on here for so long. Well I had such a FUN summer! I made so many new friends! It's been great! I took a few trips around the state!! I got Brandt, Turpy and Myrt to come and stay at my house and we went to the Drive in!! Then we went horse riding and to the hot pots in Fillmore.. I actually went on a few horse rides this summer! They were fun!

I ate at Hooters for the first time when we sent mav off..! ha ha.. that was his choice! It was really fun though!
I went to Blanding to play in a softball coed tourny and I was adopted into a Navajo family!
I love them! Then from there I headed to Lake Powell and had such a blast just chillin and not having a sense of time! I went to St. George and played in a 2 night all nighter tourny! That was really fun! It was something that I had never done before! Myrt was there and we ended up losing to his team! L( It was perfect weather when we were playing and I actually rolled my ankle there for the first time ever. :*( ugh! That was no fun! It still hurts me!

The 24th of July was also another highlight! LOVE IT! I say it's my Christmas in the summer! I love the derby! I brought my navajo friend Trav and introduced him to the derby! he loved it! even though it's soo redneck! :)
I even ran into Darrin a couple of times! I love this kid! :)
And my old roommate Cassie took me to a Josh Turner concert up in Evanstan Wyoming! (Cassie is probably the most NON-country music fan) I'm so proud of her for going! She got the tickets for my birthday and it was sooooo much fun! And Josh Turner has such a sexy voice! Mmmm!
This obviously isn't covering everything form the summer but a lot of it! I had a blast! I counted all the softball tourny's that I played in and I think it came to 9 or 10! This weekend I'm off to another one, the spanish fork all-nighter! I love coed! It's pretty much my life! I'm on 3 league teams! wowzars! I pay in Mt. Pleasant on mon and tues when I can. I usually work on Monday nights so I can't play then. I am on a team in Payson.. Brandt pretty much forced me to sign up ;)! That leauge is every wed night. So if they don't have enough girls I can go up there to play! And then there is intramurals!! It's every wed and thurs night.. So that kinda clashes with Payson.. UGH!! I'm so dumb! I should just learn to tell ppl no! I was originally just going to play in Payson but then a team in Mt. didn't have enough players one night and they asked me to be on their team so I of course said yes! I love it! What do ya expect???

also changed my major, I'm going into dental hygiene! So I'm also going to school and getting my pre req's taken care of.. which are, anatomy, microbiology, and pyschology! Those three classes make up 11 credits! I'm also taking bowling! :) So my life is crazy busy!! But I love it! I also met this kid here at school! What a hottie! But he is 2 years younger than me and I don't know how I feel about this yet! :S I kinda like him though ;) The next adventure in my life is an 18 hour drive to oklahoma! Mav is graduating from Basic and I'm going! I've been tellin him that I'm not though so he is gonna be surprised! Kaylyn is coming with us! :) I'm super excited!

ughhhhhhhhh

So I have decided that I have a problem............

It's a chasing problem...........

with boys................

why don't I ever really like the ones that like me????????? I mean I'll like them, and I have soooo much fun with them!!

But when they like me, and I can't chase after them anymore.. I loose interest!

Or I'll like them a lot when I'm with them but when I'm not, I don't really care so much...

I HATE this problem! I don't understand it!

I've been in a weird place lately and I don't really know how to expain it! When people ask me what's up I just brush it off and pretend as though everything is fine.. But really inside I'm all confused and like torn up.. But I can't even tell you what I'm torn up about because I don't even know... I haven't felt like this in a long while..

How do I fix this problem............??????

here are my 8 that Brandt tagged me on...

Eight things I'm looking forward to:
1. Softball Tournament tomorrow!
2. Lake Powell
3. The weekend!!
4. Seeing Casey!!
5. Seeing Landon...
6. The 24th of July!!! (derby)
7. School, so I can live with my Roommates again!
8. SLEEP...

Eight things I did this weekend:
1. Played Softball..
2. Slept
3. Ate at Hooters
4. Saw Mav for the last time in awhile.. :(
5. Celebrated Fathers Day
6. Hungout with Brandt & Teresa
7. Saw Tara for the first time all summer
8. hung out with the WHOLE fam

Eight things I wish I could do:
1. Go
2. back
3. in
4. time or
5. way
6. forward
7. to the future
8. .....Time travel!

Eight shows that I watch:
1. House
2. Friends
3. One Tree Hill
4. Ace of Cakes
5. 24... starting
6. Hannah Montana
7. Challenge cooking channel
8. CMT!!!

Eight Places I'd like to travel:
1. IRELAND
2. Italy
3. Austrailia
4. Hawaii
5. New Zealand
6. Egypt
7. London
8. Paris

Eight people I tag:
1. Whitney
2. Kaylyn
3. Lacey Jo
4. Janelle
5. Camie
6. ....
7. I need more friends on
8. here......... :( I suck

Alone....

I have to get up an hour earlier in the morning and I can't sleep... My heart hurts right now....

Have you ever been in a room FULL of people and you feel like you are the only one there??? I don't like this feeling so much.. but it seems that lately I feel so alone.. so lost in this world! I don't know where to go, who to turn to or what I should be doing sometimes! Some days I feel like I am in the place where I am supposed to be... But other days I feel completely opposite! I miss my Shi Shi and My Micah Mattie..

I can't get them outta my head.

I think about them everyday..

I miss everything about them...

I miss Micah coming into my room at night and cuddling with me till we both fell asleep.. I miss her hugs and her taking care of me.. I miss our long talks and I have yet to like a cowboy again.. I miss her random songs she made up as she sang them... I miss listening to music.. I miss our drives up the canyon and our camping trips.. I miss how crazy she was all the time.. I miss all the names she use to call me... "Skyler Suzanna Smith Johansen!!!"

I miss Shilo always making up crazy dance moves and practicing them in the mirror thinking no one was watcher her.. I miss her yelling at me cause I cooked Baccon.. I miss watching grey's anatomy with her.. I miss her scotcheroos.. I miss our long talks for all hours of the night.. I miss her listening to the veronicas all the time.. I miss her plastic surgery nose.. I miss her little first aid kit that she used like every day.. I miss her little diet pepsi bottles not laying everywhere...

There is sooo much more I could go on about.. I feel like I'm so alone in this world without these two right now... Yeah I have my best friends here and don't get me wrong I love them all just as much.... But I just feel so alone without them... I just wish that I could talk to them, hug them and tell them everything that is going on in my life.. I would have a million stories to tell....

Will the tears and the pain ever stop..??

:(. . .

MAVY!!!

(Well I decided that I am officially one of the worst bloggers!! ha ha.. I'm working on this though, i promise!)

Maverick is one of my Best Friends! I love this kid sooo dang much! He's grown so much in the past little while because of trials and ect that he has been through! I'm so proud of him! I'm so thankful that as cousins we are so close.. Our families are so close it's as if we are brother and sister! We all spend as much time together as possible and I LOVE it! Well Mav is leaving on Sunday. He joined the national guard and he'll be in Oklahoma for the next 4 months! I'm going to miss him so much! It's going to be weird with him gone for awhile... :( I don't know if I have ever gone 4 months without seeing him! He's been there so much for me this past year/semester! I'm so proud of him though! I already can't wait until he gets back and he hasn't even left yet! ha ha.. I just wanted to say a little something about him! Here are some pics that we've taken over the past couple years I think! ha ha! ohhh the memories!! ha

Word of Advice

So since i got 'promoted' to the painting job at work.. Aub and I were painting most of the day today.. And as we were doing so we forgot to ventilate the place and the fumes got to my brain! No bueno! I had the worst migraine!! And I've never had a migraine in my life! After work I hung up a blanket in my window and laid in bed like all night! I proceeded to the tub at one point and listened to some tunes! I popped an 800 Ibprofen! and I never freakin take drugs for anything! It was seriously so bad! I think I was high while I was in the apartment! ha ha.. I was laughing so hard at the dumbest things.. ha ha! Aub and I both were! ha ha
I thought I was gettting sick until I talked to my mom on the phone and told her about my day and she was like duh sky!! Did you have any windows open while you were painting? I was like no.. and she said, well no wonder you have a migraine!! ha ha..

So for a word of advice! OPEN windows when you are painting! Ventilate the area!! Bad experience if you don't! Although it was very funny! ha ha.. :)

Okay so I know it has been FOREVER since I have actually got on here and blogged about something. I'm going to blame that on not ever having any time to do it! ha ha But now that I have some free time and I'm just chillin at my grandma's house on a full stomach I might as well say a little something about my birthday saturday!!

It all started Friday night when Ashley and I went to Whitney's house to have a Slumber party!! We kinda got a little excited with taking pictures!! ha ha.. here are some.. oh and my hair instantly was back to the length I use to have it! ;)

Then we woke up and got ready so we could go watch some off constantly and thunderbay softball.. except off constantly was a little bit of an off day and we didn't get to see them play eachother.. It was still quite fun! I love watching softball, except it really just makes me want to play it! I get to play in a tourny this weekend and I'm pretty excited!! After softball we went to lunch and los hermonos! I love eating there!

After Los hermonos.. Aubree and Whitney left and went home because they had other plans they needed to attend to.. Ash, Kay and I all went to the mall and did a little shopping! I also got a pedicure! It was awesome! I loved it!

We then got invited to go to a BBQ and B-rett's house in Spanish Fork so we headed down there! When we got there they had got me a Birthday cake!! Aww!! It was so sweet of them!! They made me eat the piece of the cake that had my name on it and Ashley shoved it in my face!! ha But don't worry, brandt helped me and we got her back!! We played catch and stuff while we were there and I met a bunch of new people that were awesome!! After the BBQ we headed back up to Orem and we went to Angels and Demons! Before the movie started we were all talking and being loud and a lady yelled at me and told me to be quite! oops!! later i found out the guy sitting next to jed was getting mad at him for his cell phone and stuff too! ha ha.. We all shouldn't be allowed to go out in public together!

We then proceeded to Brandt's condo and hung out for a bit. My parents had called me earlier that night and they had drove home through the canyon and said the rain was so bad that they went like 45 the whole way home so we just decided to have a slumber party and ash and I slept in turpy's bed since he's been away..! Thanks Turp! When we got up in the morning we played some boggle, ate some breakfast, watched a little tv and then headed for home! I left my mitt at B-rett's house the night before at the BBQ so I had to stop by and get it. While we were there, Ash and I stole my cake, a 2 liter of Pepsi and a fork! ha ha! There are some criminals on the loose!! ha ha We ate so much of the cake on the way home and it almost ended up on the floor of my car a couple of times!! No bueno!!

When I got home, My family and I headed to Fillmore for my birthday dinner with the whole family! It was so good and I ate so much!! Over all I had such a fun birthday and I just want to say thank you to everyone that helped make it so much fun! I love you guys!