here are my 8 that Brandt tagged me on...

Eight things I'm looking forward to:
1. Softball Tournament tomorrow!
2. Lake Powell
3. The weekend!!
4. Seeing Casey!!
5. Seeing Landon...
6. The 24th of July!!! (derby)
7. School, so I can live with my Roommates again!
8. SLEEP...

Eight things I did this weekend:
1. Played Softball..
2. Slept
3. Ate at Hooters
4. Saw Mav for the last time in awhile.. :(
5. Celebrated Fathers Day
6. Hungout with Brandt & Teresa
7. Saw Tara for the first time all summer
8. hung out with the WHOLE fam

Eight things I wish I could do:
1. Go
2. back
3. in
4. time or
5. way
6. forward
7. to the future
8. .....Time travel!

Eight shows that I watch:
1. House
2. Friends
3. One Tree Hill
4. Ace of Cakes
5. 24... starting
6. Hannah Montana
7. Challenge cooking channel
8. CMT!!!

Eight Places I'd like to travel:
1. IRELAND
2. Italy
3. Austrailia
4. Hawaii
5. New Zealand
6. Egypt
7. London
8. Paris

Eight people I tag:
1. Whitney
2. Kaylyn
3. Lacey Jo
4. Janelle
5. Camie
6. ....
7. I need more friends on
8. here......... :( I suck

Alone....

I have to get up an hour earlier in the morning and I can't sleep... My heart hurts right now....

Have you ever been in a room FULL of people and you feel like you are the only one there??? I don't like this feeling so much.. but it seems that lately I feel so alone.. so lost in this world! I don't know where to go, who to turn to or what I should be doing sometimes! Some days I feel like I am in the place where I am supposed to be... But other days I feel completely opposite! I miss my Shi Shi and My Micah Mattie..

I can't get them outta my head.

I think about them everyday..

I miss everything about them...

I miss Micah coming into my room at night and cuddling with me till we both fell asleep.. I miss her hugs and her taking care of me.. I miss our long talks and I have yet to like a cowboy again.. I miss her random songs she made up as she sang them... I miss listening to music.. I miss our drives up the canyon and our camping trips.. I miss how crazy she was all the time.. I miss all the names she use to call me... "Skyler Suzanna Smith Johansen!!!"

I miss Shilo always making up crazy dance moves and practicing them in the mirror thinking no one was watcher her.. I miss her yelling at me cause I cooked Baccon.. I miss watching grey's anatomy with her.. I miss her scotcheroos.. I miss our long talks for all hours of the night.. I miss her listening to the veronicas all the time.. I miss her plastic surgery nose.. I miss her little first aid kit that she used like every day.. I miss her little diet pepsi bottles not laying everywhere...

There is sooo much more I could go on about.. I feel like I'm so alone in this world without these two right now... Yeah I have my best friends here and don't get me wrong I love them all just as much.... But I just feel so alone without them... I just wish that I could talk to them, hug them and tell them everything that is going on in my life.. I would have a million stories to tell....

Will the tears and the pain ever stop..??

:(. . .

MAVY!!!

(Well I decided that I am officially one of the worst bloggers!! ha ha.. I'm working on this though, i promise!)

Maverick is one of my Best Friends! I love this kid sooo dang much! He's grown so much in the past little while because of trials and ect that he has been through! I'm so proud of him! I'm so thankful that as cousins we are so close.. Our families are so close it's as if we are brother and sister! We all spend as much time together as possible and I LOVE it! Well Mav is leaving on Sunday. He joined the national guard and he'll be in Oklahoma for the next 4 months! I'm going to miss him so much! It's going to be weird with him gone for awhile... :( I don't know if I have ever gone 4 months without seeing him! He's been there so much for me this past year/semester! I'm so proud of him though! I already can't wait until he gets back and he hasn't even left yet! ha ha.. I just wanted to say a little something about him! Here are some pics that we've taken over the past couple years I think! ha ha! ohhh the memories!! ha